Just when everyone forget about this little space..

好友订婚了！真替她高兴。我和Karen第一时间除了恭喜她以外，还抢着要当伴娘。哈哈。

哎哟为什么突然感到人老了。都到了谈婚论嫁的阶段。我才22好不好。

I hold my plush toy close to my heart as I curl up in bed hoping that this will help me get to sleep. Although the pain felt a little lesser, my heart still hurts.

Next comes music therapy. The first round didn't help. Neither did the second. It was until the third when my eyes could not hold on any longer that I fell asleep unknowingly.This is the second time I felt so empty, on the inside.

Everyone thinks that I am perfect but no one knows that I am not or did they choose not to see it. Others want my life which I don't know why. I have my hard times too, yet they only see the glorious side. I don't hide on purpose. I just don't share that easily. There are problems I couldn't solve.

Parents are the best in the world. They accept for whoever you are although they do push you to becoming who they want you to be. No matter what, they will always be the one supporting you in whatever ways they can. I love my parents wholeheartedly. No one can replace you guys from my world. My life would be tough if they are not with me and I just know it. All I think about right now is how to make them happy and enjoy their lives.

I should get Alwin to bring me to Chinatown after my papers to do some furniture shopping for my room.

Things to get :
- wooden treasure chest
- old grandfather clock
- wall stickers

Time to decorate this tiny space of mine to further improve the environment.

Theme : Nature.

Still wondering if I should shift my blog to tumblr in terms of writing & pictures from my life. Yet every memories of mine is located right here. How could I possibly abandon or delete this whole blog. Most probably I would regret for a long while if I am to do it on impulse.

A sudden panic, racing heartbeat; anxiety.

Being able to enjoy good food is a blessing. However, it can't be used for healing the emptiness. I am the direct opposite of others.

I need to get back to playing sports. Otherwise I would be dying slowly, on the inside.

Sometimes, I wonder what am I; complicated characters. I can be really concerned about an issue and cry over it but becomes absolutely fine in a split second. Does anyone gets over with depressing issues that fast? Or was it not depressing to begin with.

I think my girlfriends are my best medicine. Their little encouragement helps greatly. Sometimes I think they possess healing powers.
With much love.

Alright now I am feeling a tiny bit of happiness which makes me positively sure that I am WEIRD.

Why does the air around me feels so cold. Today may be the doomsday as per said by some but I have more to face. In preparation to receive the not-very-welcoming email tomorrow.

Maybe I became stupid after all these years.

I hate telling others about myself. It makes me feels insecure, over-exposed. Sometimes I find myself leaking too much of an information when I gets way too happy, which I later regret. Maybe this is the reason as to why I tend to be really quiet without myself knowing it. I should try a new tactic when conversing with strangers.

I am pretty traumatized from what happened earlier and embarrassed at the same time. Will not be sharing the whole incident. Let's just hope that I would be lucky enough not to be in this kind of situation any more.

5'7" that seems pretty long. Sometimes I wish to be taller than that. However, after looking at the average height of the opposite gender, maybe being tall wouldn't be that much of a good idea.

The cycle repeats.