I've reached so high and fall so low.

Utterly disappointed in myself. I've strive so hard and has come to the last stage yet ruined everything just in that 8minutes. Maybe I should have taken the offer. I just need more time and it will be a lot better than what it is now. Can I have a second chance? There is no more second time. That is the cruelty. I will just have to live with it. I hate everything that is around me. What I need now is to quieten down. Let me get myself back.

Thanks Jan for all the best wishes and encouragement you gave. Really a million thanks. ALL THE BEST to you too. GO FOR IT. :)