I'm running lost. They want me to make a decision now. But what I wanted was to wait.
How should I phrase my words to stop the progress yet not destroy what's good.
I'm not out to hurt neither do I want to hurt.
When will I act in a way and treats myself better. - it seems impossible.

I'm looking for this perfect world; my kind of world.
But a perfect world can never exist. I don't control everything neither do I have the ability.
I missed the times spent staying with my friends though home still feels the best. Ironic but yes.