I was hit by facts of this society again and again. With the many advice given through their experience and thoughts. Forcing me to make choices and letting go of what I had and once prayed of having. I can't handle this situation any longer. However, it seems or even sounds important that it is unavoidable. In just 2 months.  Is this some kind of a critical stage or crucial checkpoint?

It has been a harsh learning period. Or has it always been? That is how I was shaped into who and how I am now. Will this continue or come to a halt?

The letter has yet been mailed out.
I don't come from a rich family, so I can't afford to be selfish.
Get this over and done with, fish.